If I had the chance to choose what would I choose? If I had the chance to let go what would I let go of? Life is full of so many different things and I wish I could always see them in good light to see them clearly and happily so I feel old and yet I feel so old. I have forgotten how to ramble on about my thoughts or how togmhave dreams I am afraid to hold on to who I was-thr good things And yet can't let go of the negative things the things that hinder me from who I was, what I enjoyed about myself Or from who I think or see or want to be I am afraid of expressing my true self, my true thoughts, my true opinions I feel so different from the normal crowd and wish I could fit in And yet at the same time I feel that way too with the want to influence others for and good But my fear of opinion expression I feel I can not do that